Denial Run Amuck

Imagine for a moment you are sitting at home can’t get a date. You don’t mind you have your video RPG. She is strong, dominate, and you picked her. OK to the masses you are a geek. It is obvious is it not? Or is it? Was it the game or the fact you can’t get a date that is the litmus test for the conclusion. Surprise! It is not the date. It is the game that has you in that group that is so frowned upon. However, lets look in another world shall we.


You are 200 pounds 6 ft tall 12% body fat and you have women beating down your door. Oh did I mention that you engage in fantasy football. Or did I forget that you also do fantasy baseball. Oh sorry, I forgot you play the season version of Madden every year as well. You always get the next years version, never forgetting to challenge your other geeky friends to a match on the weekends.


Oh denial, such a dangerous thing.

One reason we are...

Hello To You
Whomever you are at this time.


I decided to write this in an effort to create flow. Flow for many is one thing or another, in this case flow is balance. Balance can not be achieved without some type of truth. Without it factors in an equation can not come to an end. There will always be unbalance due to factors not divulged. As a matter of fact, a flowchart without all factors being considered will never end.

What I have stated is what is wrong with us. Our words do not match our conscience, nor do they match our acts. So, in turn we are where we are now. We are visual shells of our selves. All because of our symptoms of fear (one of which is deception or lies) our families are dysfunctional. Our marriages end in divorce. Our friends are not trustworthy.
Our government is corrupt.

All of these things, and many other I did not name, have diluted our way of life. For those dilutions we are not living. We are playing keep away. To keep my pseudo-spirit I must keep my feelings away from you. I must keep my thoughts from you. And most of all, I must keep my guard up. If these things are not done, you will see my flaws. You will judge me. You will betray me. If you won’t do that, will you lift me up? Will you reach out to me as my brother or my sister?

Flaws are normal. Or should I say human? We are becoming what we fear. We are becoming our flaws. Instead of confronting them, we are trying to hide them. Praying that no one will see them, we judge people in the hopes that will make us feel better.

So if this will come to any positive conclusion, I need to say this. I’m a liar. I’m not everything I should be. I am not truthful with the people I love. I play keep away with them.

Why? You will judge me. You will tear me down. I need your help, your advice, and your spirit. But, will you think that I will not listen? Judge you; tear you down just to make you feel better. That is the question that we fight with everyday. Why do we fight?
Can I help you? Maybe with some things I can. Can you help me? Maybe with some things you can.

But will we stop fighting and start trying.