AND YOU DONT KNOW ME YET

You Are 8% Abnormal
You are at medium risk for being a psychopath. It is somewhat likely that you have no soul. You are at low risk for having a borderline personality. It is unlikely that you are a chaotic mess.You are at low risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is unlikely that you are in love with your own reflection.You are at low risk for having a social phobia. It is unlikely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement.You are at low risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is unlikely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer.

ROLL CALL

They said it could be
A rush of failure all over me
Eclipsing hope with the blackness of a heart
Finding pleasure in the way lovers part
Free fallin’ not looking forward to the sudden stop
In an avant-garde jazz mood, all I find is pop
Can’t a sister find a package in its totality
Fellas, the “package” in your pants is your perception, not my reality
Friends fallin’ to the wayside…fuckers broke code
Put my ass in a Hunter’s mode
Can’t quite get it, men being a boy, women, being a girl
Fuck all is fair in “love and war”…all is “fair in the world”
Can’t find Leaders…hell, can’t create one
Too busy being fake, makin’ followers to get your bullshit done
Tired of seeing the “impossible” being “possible”, the drama is evermore
Don’t wish to be “Neo”…I’m “Morpheus” with confidence; I’ll kick the Machines Ass….
And win the war

LOVE ME SOME CAPITALISM

Damn, a new way for people to connect…again. We can complain about politics, social ills, and gas prices. Oh yeah gas prices… $ 2.73 is the cheapest I can find in the burbs.
Let’s play a game, is the gas killing us? Could it be the fact that the mode of transportation has not evolved since the inception of the model-t. “Damn I am getting me a hybrid” I have heard many say. A good alternative, except most still takes gas. So what is the answer? Make these car makers quit getting paid with a product that is sub-standard. I saw a commercial where a woman said to get clean air would she give up her car. SHE SAID NO! I can’t breathe, but hey I can still get to the mall. I love our priorities.

LOGIC VS. EMOTIONS

I have a very hard time understanding logic vs. emotions. I had this situation where I hear people ripping others, a couple of times they ripped previous mates. So in another day I ripped someone’s previous mate…punishment. Cut off and immediately was admonished in a way I still can not comprehend. You can’t talk about who I have been with only I can do that! Why? It’s my experience, not yours! So if I go to school and learn the chemical breakdown of H2O and tell you can you tell someone? That’s different! Both situations revolve around information…if you don’t want someone to use that info…don’t say it.

SOMETHING ON MY MIND

I’ve grown so weary of so many things and my questions have been many. However......................................
My assumptions have taken the best of me. So, simply put I’m going to speak on FRAUD. It is amazing that the people who crack jokes about our politicians are smarter and have better ideas than the politicians themselves. What is more amazing we aren’t smart enough to either vote them in or take their ideas and run with them.

ITS BEEN ON MY MIND

I’ve been wondering some things so here they are…
In the Garden of Eden Eve and Adam gave in to temptation from a serpent which in church has been identified as the devil or Satan.
However I also have been informed that Satan is a fallen angel…hmmm.
If this is true I am confused…if Satan was a angel…we all have been told that an angel is a human brought to heaven to serve God…does that mean there were people on earth before Adam and Eve?

A THOUGHT I HAD AFTER READING ANOTHER BLOG

My response to another blog about kirk franklin
First thing first... The Ghost In The Machine wishes to chime in.The only reason anyone is talking about this is Kirk Franklin as Dave Chappelle said HE'S RICH BITCH!So it is about his money.Also he is not addicted to porn,if he was he would be broke, left his wife(or she would have left him)and he would not have gone on Oprah because he would still have his dick in his hand watching porn. The young lady was very correct...nothing like the real thing.So true, however the real thing has a body, a brain, a mouth(Nothing hurts like your mouth)and nowadays more shit than we want to put up with.So porn is that moment when we cant stand to be with someone we have already made bad decisions in order to be with. Now as for "secular gospel or religion",a euphemism for let's do shit we have already been doing yet have been passing judgement on others for doing the exact same thing.Religion needs some secular points of views in order for it to survive. Because if the christian right keeps the bible thumpin goats in sheep's clothing telling people to go to church live right and above all do what the rich is telling you to do. Someone is going to come around with a new religion(you know a cult with credibility)and flip this whole script by removing money,race,sexual orientation,sexual gender...oh and above all religion.And replace it with God, love, honor,and spirituality.So, in closing good for Kirk Franklin...be addicted to porn, admit it, if he thinks its wrong so be it.You have every right to feel that way...its your opinion.Testify to your mistake, that is a good thing. But until you can say you have spoken with God(He hasnt no one has and I cannot stand when people mistake God with their moral code which starts at birth and develops through experience)you cannot tell me what is good for me unless it harms you.The Ghost is signing off.

YOU ARE NOT AN ORIGINAL

Today something very odd occurred… I was read by a young lady (25 years old to be exact). She described me to the letter. Originally I felt funny trying to duck and dodge her thoughts of me. Some were negative and others were positive, but all were pretty accurate. Damn! Is she my soul mate? Nothing of the sort, she just read me. I had to ask her how she knew me so well…hell she did not know my last name. She told me something that I have to get off my chest. Oh you remind me of my father!!!!!!!!!!
Now initially my ego was a little damaged but then I paid attention. She had previous encounters with someone that was like me. Now let’s look at that. If I see a duck and I see something similar to it I know it is a duck.
Now for my point when we run across people who remind us of someone we have known in our past. Why when we say hey you think like this, you act like this, and a lot of times you are like this. They have a damn hissy fit…YOU DON’T KNOW ME …
OR MY FAVORITE…ONLY GOD CAN JUDGE ME. Well today the role of God was portrayed by a fellow co-worker…and she was much better than that BRUCE ALMIGHTY guy.

THIS IS PRECIOUS TO ME

This has always been a hard thing for me to do but I must share this...my love for MUSIC!
Everytime I hear this song I get harden up to deal with the perils of my day.
Still looking for my Kate Bush though.
Damn this was Peter Gabriel showing the women of the world we dont have it all together and we need them. Yes I said it...need them...cant make it... do it...or be it without them.
Every good quarterback needs a cheerleader.

DONT GIVE UP
in this proud land we grew up strongwe were wanted all alongI was taught to fight, taught to winI never thought I could failno fight left or so it seemsI am a man whose dreams have all desertedI've changed my face, I've changed my namebut no one wants you when you losedon't give up'cos you have friendsdon't give upyou're not beaten yetdon't give upI know you can make it goodthough I saw it all aroundnever thought I could be affectedthought that we'd be the last to goit is so strange the way things turndrove the night toward my homethe place that I was born, on the lakesideas daylight broke, I saw the earththe trees had burned down to the grounddon't give upyou still have usdon't give upwe don't need much of anythingdon't give up'cause somewhere there's a placewhere we belongrest your headyou worry too muchit's going to be alrightwhen times get roughyou can fall back on usdon't give upplease don't give up'got to walk out of hereI can't take anymoregoing to stand on that bridgekeep my eyes down belowwhatever may comeand whatever may gothat river's flowingthat river's flowingmoved on to another towntried hard to settle downfor every job, so many menso many men no-one needsdon't give up'cause you have friendsdon't give upyou're not the only onedon't give upno reason to be ashameddon't give upyou still have usdon't give up nowwe're proud of who you aredon't give upyou know it's never been easydon't give up'cause I believe there's the a placethere's a place where we belong

MY TRIBUTE...

This is long overdue (at least from me that is) a tribute that will have more than one part.
It needs more than one part. My tribute is to women. In my mind, the creator, the Alpha, the strength when you have none, the backup plan when yours fail or worse when you cant think of one.
To me women are the reason the world is in the state we are in, or least their response to the worlds, mistakes that is. I remember one of the Men In Black movies where Rosario Dawson’s character had the power to change the very state of the weather with her emotions. This was not because she was an alien to me. It was a metaphor as to how the ol sayin is “if mama aint happy no one is happy”. That is the power god has entrusted women with. You are the barometer of the world. You are the true catalyst of change.

I cannot ever encapsulate in words your strength…hell to be honest I do not believe a women can be pushed to her limits…she has none. How can a creator of life have limits?
You defy the perception of beauty while shattering the belief of individuality. What else can be the same yet rarely ever have a twin in looks, spirit or thought. You are everything, yet one of a kind.

Because of you I am. You created me at birth and you made me a man…I would have stayed a boy had you not made me want to be with you. For the desire to be with you I had to “Bring My A Game” and when I could not you pushed me to with threat of you better or game over. I love, cherish, think, and feel because of the example you set.

FOR THAT I THANK, PRAISE, AND LIFT YOU UP…TO ME YOU ARE MY RELIGION, MY GOD, AND MY ALL…FOR THERE IS NOTHING WITHOUT YOU!


PART 1

YOU LIKE ME...YOU REALLY LIKE ME

I have thought about this for quite some time now…so it is time to do the unthinkable.
Lets bare my soul. I have read many a blog, email, and letter about acceptance and I must say someone is either lying or here is the reason we lack connection, continuity, or as I like to call it flow. I am very guilty of this quote” SO WHAT IF YOU DO NOT LIKE ME”. Allow me to presuppose that many of you reading this feel the same way. But is that a quote, a credo, or is it pseudo-bravado rearing its ugly head. The reality is that there is no way that everyone can like you, or ever love you. But are we being truthful in our statements of independence, or our chants of ambivalence to people not being on the same page as we are. Somewhere in our spirit we must long for that connection that goes beyond our “INNER CIRCLE” I know for myself I long for that “uber-connection”.
So for me I appreciate those I connect with even though I come off as if “ I DON’T NEED YOU”. The fact is I do. That is a discovery I don’t mind. Hell I wish to embrace it. Wouldn’t we feel better knowing the “safety net” is bigger if we had more loved ones to fall back on? I want that communal environment that I hear many people showing disdain for. So I guess what I’m really trying to say is I wish, I long for a bigger connection of people to interact with, talk to, and love (all love is not in our pants). Seeking that maybe the final frontier that we all talk about.


AINT THAT HOW GOD PLANNED IT?!

YOU CANT FIX STUPID

This one I had to write because in a previous blog someone commented that we couldn’t fix everything. When did the impossibilities supercede the possibilities? I didn’t get the memo on that one. I once told an employee that was flustered due to a mistake that a “mistake is only a mistake when you cant fix it”, now what cant be fix? What obstacle can’t be overcome? When did we become resolute in our shortcomings? If we accept one the slippery slope takes over and we will have more of the things in our present day that cripple us.



The credo to live by…well maybe. What is impossible is only that way by the lack of trying. Eventually we all must become a fixer. By either the internal corrections required so that we can have the life we desire or through a social or cultural change. You may not be able to fix stupid, but can you change some of the stupid things we do. I believe that we can fix anything…we just don’t want to.



The acceptance of mediocrity and the self-resolution of “the same ol’ same ol’” has us in a stranglehold. When does the “like attracting like” come into play? When do the good or at least the good intended like minds come together and fix the things we talk about at work, at home, on our blogs, or even in our minds.

YOU ARE THE BLESSING

I can’t understand why I constantly hear the quote of “it was a blessing that this happened to me”. Your date of birth is your blessing, what you do after that is your choices. The things we do have KARMATIC REPRECUSSIONS IN THEM. Don’t think for a moment that truth DOES NOT have consequences. The LORD does not bless you in your life…
He gave you life and free will…yes I am speaking of that choices thing again. Lets ponder on the things we do and the consequences before we say to the LORD thank you for this blessing. He might take it away if he sees that you can’t figure out that hard work brought this to your life.

Hello To Myself

Hi Gene,
How are you? I wanted to pass on some wisdom that you need to know.
Looking back I wish I knew this...
1. Get off your butt, cut off the t.v.,read a book.
2. A degree does not validate your existance, but start going back to school now.
3. Go to church.
4. Her death was not your fault, quit blaming yourself you are not that powerful.
5. Kiss her.
6. Do not go down that street...danger!
7. Let people in more...or you will be what you see before you.
8. Dont be so damn judgemental, why... see #7.
9. Tell her no, walk away.
10. Fear is a tool and an obstacle, learn the difference before you are 28.
11. Sing!
12. Stop telling people your weaknesses, or at least stop telling the wrong people that.
13. He is in pain, he is not angry at you.
14. Everybody uses each other...but this bitch is abusing you.
15. Never go back to something you have left...that is called moving backwards...not correcting a mistake.
16. Never experiment in your 30's if you didnt do it in your 20's you missed the boat.
17. You dont know everything, but you do know more than people around you let you know.
18. Reason is the happy medium between negative and positive extremes... live in the reason, not in the moment...because if you dont die there is another moment coming.
19. Dont use the word LOVE in vain it makes you come off small if the truth comes out.
20. Never fear the truth...in the end that's all you have.